Where is God?
“Where was God when my husband hit me?” “Where were you, God, when I was all alone and nobody believed what was going on in my home?” “God, do you even know what he’s doing to our family?” “Does God even care?”
I asked those questions a lot. We would expect a loving Father to step in and rescue us from the hands and voice of our oppressor. It’s only normal to think that God would help us during those terrible times. Sometimes the tears would fall even harder because I had very high expectations of God.
When I was living my life on eggshells, it was so very difficult to imagine life any other way. I felt trapped and alone. If God was watching, He sure didn’t seem to care very much.
And then we feel shame for not trusting enough, and we feel guilty for asking those questions of God.
It becomes a very heavy burden on top of our already heavy burdens.
Without minimizing the pain, the hurt, the betrayal, the fear and sadness that we have felt because of the abuse we have suffered, I’d like to take just a minute to bring comfort and encouragement.
God has promised in His Word that He will bring justice to the oppressed. The children of Israel were in bondage for hundreds of years in Egypt — the Lord delivered them out of their oppression. Later, they were taken into captivity into Babylon for seventy years — the Lord in His great mercy brought them out of their oppression. In His great faithfulness, the Lord delivered Little Wife from Big Man (a story for another time).
“The Lord is a stronghold for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.” Psalm 9:9
He does see, He does care, He does bring justice to His hurting daughters. He weeps with us during these sad seasons. He holds us close in His arms and protects us from the worst of it. He feels our pain and knows our bitterest grief. He sings the lament in a sad baritone voice right along with us. Even in our pain and confusion, He is with us. He is always and forever “Immanuel”. Because of the great love of Jesus, we are not consumed by the anger and rage of the abusers in our life. He comes to us with healing in His hands. He leads us out of the House of Grim where we have been held hostage to abuse. He leads us out of the darkness and into the wonderful cleansing light of freedom and peace and joy. Because of the love of Christ, we overcome death and the grave.
Where is God? God is with you, right now. He is gracious and merciful. He has a wonderful plan for your life — a plan to bless you and prosper you, a plan to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). Will you reach for His warm loving hand today? He might be calling you to tell someone what’s really going on in your home. He might be asking you to take a leap of faith and leave the abuse. He might be giving an extra large portion of grace to help you cope with the emotional pain. Maybe He is offering the peace that comes with forgiveness. He might be giving you hope to endure. Weeping may last for a night but joy is coming in the morning, dear sister. Hold onto Jesus.